|Enjoying pushing the car around|
|Felix with his Special Needs Playgroup Teacher|
I was almost 39 years old when we decided to try for another baby. Nathan was only 31. We knew that there was a much higher chance that we would have a baby with Down Syndrome because of my age. In fact, we actually asked ourselves, "Are we prepared to have a child with Down Syndrome? Would that bother us?" Our answer was always that we would be happy with that. In some ways it's a little bit like we made a decision to adopt a child with Down Syndrome; except we didn't know it yet. We already prepared for the possibility even before it became a reality. When, at our 19 week scan the Radiologist said, "I think your baby has Down Syndrome", we really weren't surprised. In fact Nathan responded, "Is that all?" I'll never forget the perplexed look on the Radiologist's face.
|So much concentration|
|I can't help but celebrate this life!|
I'm not going to say that I never have negative thoughts. I am a fiercely protective parent and worry about Felix's future. The thought that he will be teased or treated with disrespect when I'm not around to stand up for him kills me sometimes. The thought that the fluid in his brain could get to a dangerous level again petrifies me when I think about it. I often discuss my worries and concerns with other parents of children with Down Syndrome. But, at the end of the day, I am trying not to dwell on the negatives and get distressed thinking about all the possibilities in the future. Just for now, I'm going to enjoy every day. I'm going to celebrate the happiness and joy which Felix brings into our lives. For now he is a very healthy little boy who is progressing beautifully. If some think I'm being too positive...so be it. I have never laughed so much or felt such a unity within our family... it is beautiful and I'm loving every second!